Jun 30, 2020
Pulmonary hypertension patient, KC Yates discusses her PH diagnosis, thoughts on motherhood, and the art of listening to what her body is telling her.
My name is KC Yates. I really didn't know what was going on. I'm
like, "Okay, I have bronchitis." So I went over to the doctors and
they did a chest x-ray, and they were like, "Well, you don't have
bronchitis. You have pulmonary arterial hypertension. That's why
your heart is four times larger than it should be."
I got diagnosed November 15th, 2018. They were like, "You have to
go on Sildenafil, Opsumit.” I'm newly on Orenitram [as well.] I was
on the subcutaneous pump for about a year and then I transferred to
the oral meds, which is amazing.
[My doctor said], "Oh, you can't have kids. You can't walk by
yourself. You can't exercise by yourself. You can't be alone. You
can't take a shower. You can't do this. You can't do that." I'm
like, "Uh, okay. I do all that, and now you're saying that I can't
do that? I can't get pregnant? I can't do this, I can do this? What
am I going to do?" My mind was racing, and I got out of the
hospital and the kid thing just hit me. I'm like, "I can't have a
kid. What am I going to do? I'm 23. I want a kid and I can't have
it." Just being home, not being able to do nothing, it would drive
me nuts.
With the subcutaneous [therapy], I got trained with it. It was
like, "Hey, I don't know how to do this. I don't want to do this. I
don't want to stick myself with a needle. And I don't want the pain
with it." It was mind-blowing what people and myself had to go
through just to stay alive. When I did the sub-Q, I didn't like the
pain. It was okay. [My doctor said], "If your pressures are good
enough to switch you to oral meds, we will." I said, "Okay. What
would we have to do for that?" [My doctor told me], "You have to do
a right heart catheterization."
It was three months where I had to wait for them to do it, because
I was still new to it. I asked every time that I went to the
doctor. [I would ask], "Hey, can I get off this?" The [doctor would
say], "Not yet. Hold on. Your pressures are not good. Your numbers
are not good. You're still walking not as far as we'd like." So I
finally waited and I didn't even have to ask my doctor. I had the
look in my eye, like, "Can I get off this?" He said, "Yep, your
pressures are good. You did your right heart catheterization
great." I'm still switching from my body getting used to it and
stuff like that. I'm doing the right heart catheterization this
month to see if the meds are actually working. So I'm excited to
see if they are working.
It was very hard to accept that I can't have any kids. I still get
baby fever when I got out and see a cute baby. But most of my
friends have kids, so I can go over there and spoil them, and I get
my baby fever fix. I still want to try to have a kid. I asked the
doctor, "Can I ever have a kid?" He said, "If you do everything
that you're told to. If you get on a CPAP machine." Because
apparently, I have sleep apnea with it. They're like, "You might be
able to have a kid. We don't know. But you might be able to. If
not, there's more options."
I'm thinking that I'm going to be able to do all these tests and if
all my numbers come out perfect, but you never know what they're
going to come out. I'm hoping to see myself be able to have a child
and to be able to stand on my own two feet by myself. I'm open to
adoption. I'm open to fostering. I'm open to the surrogate thing.
I'm open for me to have my own kid, also. But if not, there are
other options.
What I've noticed about myself is that when I was not diagnosed
with it, I could do everything in the whole entire house. I could
go sweep. I could do the whole house in an hour. I realize when I
was doing all these meds that the meds were not letting me do
everything. I just did one room at a time, even though it drives me
bonkers. I has to learn I can't push myself or I'm going to either
A, end up dead, or two, end up in the hospital fighting, because I
pushed myself. I take it easy now, and it's hard, but I'm a
go-go-go person. I don't like sitting around the house. I don't
like not helping my parents. Or when I was married, I wanted to
help outside and I couldn't because the disease was so harsh on me.
I couldn't go for a walk. I couldn't take the dogs for a walk. I'm
like, "Okay. Can't do it. What do I do?"
Every person is different in what they can or cannot do. Just find
what you can do with this disease and yes, it might drive you
bonkers like it drives me bonkers, but you will get used to it.
Either A, you're going to push yourself to do something and hurt
yourself, or B, you could just do it gradually and be able to set a
goal. "Oh, hey, I could probably do this, but I gradually have to
do it." If I want to mow or whatever, I do one line and then come
back after I'm done, out of breath, or whatever, and then do
another one. I'll do the same task over and over again until I get
done, but I would have to take breaks.
Your body is telling you, "Oh, hey, you can't do this. That's not
going to be a great outcome for you." Or your mind is like, "Oh,
yeah, you can do this." You have to listen to both. I listen to my
body more, because that's what my body is telling me, "Oh, hey, I
can't do this." Then I gradually go up to my mind like, "Okay, I
can do this. But I got to take breaks." It's hard to get stuff out
of your mind that it's like, "Go clean out the pool," or, "Go clean
the car," or whatever. You're like, "I can't do that." You have to
shut your mind down to it. You have to listen to your body.
Like I said, I'm a go-go-go person, so my body is like, "Oh, hey,
you have to do something today. You have to do this. You have to do
that." My other half of my body is like, "Uh, no. You can't do
that." I think it's just how I am, going every day, I have to do a
task every day. But when I don't feel good with the meds and stuff
like that, I know when to come home. I know when to lay down. I
know when to take a nap and take it easy. If I don't feel good, I
won't get out of bed. I won't go out into the cold and do stuff.
I'm very eager to see what summer brings for me to be able to do
stuff.
My name is KC Yates and I am aware that I'm rare.
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